always.

Tuesday, February 03, 2009

To a new place for new memories.

Hi friends,

I've moved. (:

Having been a blogspot user for many years, I will keep this blog for memory sake. Ask me for my new blog address if you are even interested to know.

Love,
May (:

Monday, December 15, 2008

Christmas would be different for me this year. (:

Finally, I watched Love Actually yesterday. (:

Have been hearing really good comments about it since many years ago but I did not watch it till yesterday. The movie was awesome. It depicted the stories of 8 very different couples on how they spend their Christmas. Not everyone get what they want on Christmas, not all of them got together with the one they like. I love the movie cause its not like any other typical Christmas movie where its all happy endings. Love Actually made me understand there are many meanings to Christmas and different people want different things during Christmas.

I was very touched to know that for some, Christmas is a very special day/season to tell the truth and honest opinions. Because if you don't say or express it during Christmas, there would be no other chances to do so. ((: Very sweet indeed.

I am actually quite amazed by the power of Christmas cause honestly, for the past 19years, Christmas don't really mean anything to me. I could not even remember how Christmas was like for me last year. Luckily, I have this blog to remind me of times that I forgot. (:

Christmas last year was spent with my family at home, but Christmas eve was special cause Joel came to pay a special surprise visit. Honestly, last year's Christmas seemed pretty boring to me thinking back now. The year before was not much better but at least, I spent it with my 30th at Nabil's.

Now that I understand the importance of Christmas to people, I want to spend my Christmas well this year, for the first time in my life. (: Many years of Christmas were spent in a blur, without me knowing what has happened. Now that I know Christmas is such a special day, this year's Christmas would be different for me.

How would yours be like?

Would Christmas be with your family?

Or your friends?

Or would it be with your loved one?

No matter what, just have a special Christmas with no regrets.

It would not be the festival of loveee for no reason. (:

One day I will dance like them...

My second weekend ever since exams have ended was spent at TH dance camp. When it was announced that there would be a dance camp, I was pretty excited for it. I guess many others were as excited as me as well. Perhaps it was due to the fact that most of us have not been to a dance camp before and thus, we had high expectations for it, at least for me.

I wanted the camp to be a good one, a truly beneficial one, where we would learn more different styles of dances and of course, get to know the seniors more. Therefore, I joined the organising committee. But sadly, the committee itself is a disappointment. Perhaps because this is only a hall dance camp, people don't take it seriously. There was no structure and no system at all in the committee. And practically everyone was a sleeping member. To put it simply, the camp was not even organised. It just happened.

The only thing that made me felt that my time was well spent were the dance workshops. I was exposed to a variety of dances through the dance camp and inspired by one of the instructors who came to teach us. (:

We learnt New School Hip Hop, Lyrical Hip Hop, Jazz/Contemporary, Hip Hop and Freestyle Hip Hop. Too bad I had to miss the last 2 workshops due to some family matters but nevertheless, I was already tired and could not really absorb any more cheoreography.

Ohwells, I guess the dance camp did serve its purpose to expose us to the different genres of dance but definitely failed in bonding us together. Still, I am very inspired to dance well now. I really hope that I will be able to improve dancing through this holidays cause Tan Xin and I took up some dance classes at Studio Wu.

I am so gonna work hard to dance well! (:

Saturday, December 13, 2008

It was this fine day that I realised.

Life has been very good to me ever since exams ended. (: It was nonstop and continuous gatherings/meetups/outings for the entire two weeks ever since the horrible exams were over.

There was a point where I kept going out that I just felt like shutting myself up in my room and not come out for the entire day. Just some quiet time for myself. (:

And finally, I got what I wanted this week. I finally moved out of hall. It was quite hard for me at the beginning even though it would only be for a month that I would not be around in hall. But still, the feeling of not being involved in the activities most of my friends would be in really scare me. I am afraid that I would miss out so much that in January when I move back, things would be like how it were when I just moved in. But I guess, I was just worrying too much. Lol.

Cause even after I moved out, I know the friendships would remain. I am still going out every single day but this time round, at a slower pace. At least, I feel that I am in control of what I want to do and all. Unlike last week when the exams just ended, I felt like I am on a train ride to enjoyment. Though fun and enjoyable, it was tiring. I guess what I need now is rest. Ample of rest. And I have yet to get that.

Honestly, life is too short to not enjoy. I realised that through the exams period. I am really thankful that I did not apply for the vacation internship if not I would not be enjoying my time as much as now. (: Meetups, gatherings and dates are what my life is about now.

Met up with leexinhui the other day finally. It was then that I realised, I have not been talking to her for so long that at times, I would feel a little nervous that we would have awkward silences. But luckily, nothing like that happened. (: Just that, when we asked questions like how's life and all, it felt weird. From seeing her almost everyday last year, to now we had to ask each other how's life, its just weird. Good friends should not be asking each other this kinda questions. Hopefully, things would be better for the next sem though I know the both of us would be even busier than before!

Then it was the meetup with Yumin. (: Seriously, I am really glad that she is back in Singapore for 3 months. I really hope to have many more dates with her before she goes back to Australia. Kbox sessions would never be the same if it is not with her. Shopping sessions are much more comfortable whenever it is shopping with her. (: Conversations would always be full of laughters and joy when it is with her. My day is just so much happier after I met up with her. If only we go to the same university, I think we would be doing many activities together.

Sighs. But I guess things don't always go your way. I still hope that this friendship of ours stays strong and grows even stronger when she goes back to Australia. ((:

Thursday, December 04, 2008

We sang our way to ultimate highness!

Initial plans of going Sentosa with d-blockers were cancelled due to the last night clubbing on the previous night and everyone was feeling pretty tired.

Nevertheless, I had plans lined up for me still. Honestly, I felt like slacking for just awhile. Cause things had been moving at quite a fast pace ever since exams ended. I had been going out and not sleeping much lately. I am starting to feel the effects of being deprived of sleep.

Still, I had to go for the kbox session with my Voices friends at Clementi today despite the sore throat I have. The session was super fun. And I haven't had such fun in kbox for MONTHS. And I mean it when I say MONTHS! I haven't been to kbox ever since school started, which was in August. Goodness.

It was fun to sing with Jewel and Xianyi. ((: We had loads of laughters and zihigh-ing. I guess that is what I love about kboxing. And when we practised our songs for auditions, it was hilarious cause we dared to sing like an idoit without the song itself. -.- Hopefully we all do well for the auditions! (:

The three of us. (:

L.U.V! (:

If it wasn't for you guys, I guess I would have quit Voices. Thanks guys. (:

Say hello to our night life. (:

From clubbing with d-blockers, it became clubbing with the TH family! (:

The entire night was quite eventful and sometimes I really wonder if that's the clubbing life. Before we set off, the d-blockers gathered at d1 for a short drinking session first.

The going to club clubbers.

The emo kid who still has exams the next day. LOL.

After which, we set off to Zouk! (: There are many things that amazed me that night. First, five of us squeezed into a cab forcefully. I was really amazed at how Celine and Kenneth did it. Seriously. I would never ever do that.

Second, when we reached Zouk, we cut the queue easily and successfully. We entered in like less than 10minutes.

Third, whenever I go clubbing with Byron, he would always force me to drink. Yesterday would be the second time I clubbed with him. The first was TH Bash where he bout me Lychee Martini. And yesterday, they forced Tan Xin and I drink shots. But of course, its mixed.

And of course, there are many many other things that amazed me. Then, Xiu and the rest came to join us at the dance floor. ((: It became a TH clubbing session and everyone just kinda got to know each other from there.

Me and Xiu. ((: I love this photo!

Me and Huiqi.

Tan Xin, Me and Hui Ping! (: And Xiu at the back.

Me and Yichuan. The irritating one who totally spoilt this photo! )):

Yesterday was the first time I clubbed till so late and it was also the first time I really went for real clubbing and not because of any events or so. It was kinda good experience. Though someone nearly got into a fight with another group of people. But ohwells, I think things like that happen.

We left Zouk at around 3am and went to Spices for supper. The prata is super nice! I ordered Mushroom Cheese prata and it rawked my socks! (: The supper session was nice cause everyone just kinda talked and laughed with no worries of what would happen the next day. I love that feeling of having no worries in the world. ((:

When we got back hall, it was already around 5am. After bathing and all, I went over to Xiu's room to sleep cause I figured I wouldn't be seeing her anytime soon since I am moving out of hall soon. And the thought makes me really sad.

Anyways, I was really glad that I went over to sleep. Xiu and I chatted till 7plus am. Though I was super tired, I was glad that Xiu opened up to me. ((: Thanks Xiu, for telling me everything. Don't worry bout a thing k. Everything will be fine. Muacks babe!

I will miss you the most when I move out of hall. )):
Sighs!

Wednesday, December 03, 2008

Our journey to new hairstyles.

It was another day out with my dearest neighbour! Lol. I think I am so gonna get sick of her soon. How am I to survive for my entire Semester 2 next year! Lol.

Anyway, it was a joy to go out with neighbour and cut hair together with her. I bet if she is reading this now, she would be grinning from ear to ear. Lol! We went to Chapter 2, as we have decided and planned to do so before exams ended, and cut our hair. I realised that many of the plans we had planned before exams are all materialising now and I am really glad that it did. Cause most of the times, plans would just disappear into thin air. I am really happy that everything materialised so far. ((:

We both spent a bomb on our hair, I guess it was the after-exams spending mood. Lol. Girls do need to do some grooming especially after the exams, cause we both looked so cui after mugging so hard together.

After cutting our hair, I accompanied Tan Xin to her dental place and waited for her to be done for at least an hour or so. Meanwhile, we had our mini lunch. (:

These past few days I had been going to Cityhall and places that I had always been to during the long holidays. Now revisiting those places, the feeling was nostalgia. I guess after being in NUS and staying in hall, I got so lazy to travel to town. Holidays are definitely the best time to revisit the town and get sick of it before school starts! (:

Another one hour or so before d-blockers go to MAMBO NIGHT. Was feeling quite sian about it at first, but now, I am quite looking forward to it infact. ((:

The dance fever is on, yet again.

During the mugging and studying period, Tan Xin and I had decided to go for dance lessons during the 5 weeks holiday after exams. And we decided to go for lessons at Studio Wu.

So yesterday, we went for our very first lesson, Girls Hip Hop. Both of us enjoyed the lesson totally. (: And we signed up for the NUS package already, so we will be dancing more often besides the commitments from TH dance. YAY.

The very tired us after dance. (:

When we rushed back to TH, the d-block com ppl had already finished cleaning the fridge! I was kinda sad cause I really wanted to help. But oh wells, since it was already done there was nothing else that I can do. Lol.

After that, we went to A block to watch them cook. Lol. It was a fun night cause the cooking and eating was with people from other blocks. The feeling was great, cause it was like everyone clicked that night. We even popped champange to celebrate the end of exams. (:

The feeling was great, really. It made me want to stay hall longer. Maybe not for the next academic year but perhaps, during the december holidays. The end of dinner did not mark the end of the night, after nua-ing in Xiu's room for awhile, we went on to play Monopoly in Kar Ann's room. Haven't played Monopoly for quite awhile and I figured I would get bored of the game quite easily so I volunteered to be the banker. Think the job as a banker is easy right? Well, no it is not, especially if you are playing with this bunch of crazy people. LOL. They refuse to wait for the transactions to be done before proceeding to the next player so everything just happened at once. There was this moment when everyone handed money to me and I totally did not know what to do. Lol. Irritating.

Nevertheless, they brought me laughters. Loads of it. (: The end of Monopoly still did not mark the end of the day. Xiu and I went back to bathe first and then we decided to watch Ratatouille. We watched the movie all the way till around 7.30am. Xiu and I survived through the entire show but Kar Ann knocked out halfway through. Lols.

After the movie, Xiu and I went to have breakfast at comm hall. Seriously, that night was spent so fulfillingly that I was feeling very satisified with hall life. (: Xiu and I were commenting that we felt that we are living in chalet. Lol. The feeling was just great. Especially when JC best friend is there with me. ((:

I am starting to waver on my decision to not stay for the next academic year. I guess everything depends largely on the amount of points I can get now.

Tuesday, December 02, 2008

The party starts, today. (:

My last paper for the Semester 1 exams was horrible. The MCQ paper was disgustingly horrible and I was totally appalled by it.

Therefore, when the paper ended I was not feeling at all happy. In fact, a little of mixed feelings. I don't feel the highness I should have felt for obtaining my freedom, finally. Instead I felt sad and worried. But yet at the same time, eager to meet my dearest Humdingers girls for our date. (:

Maybe it was the end-of-exams mood that almost tempted me into buying 3 dvds for $49.90 from The Cd Shop. Luckily, I did not succumb to the temptation. If not, I bet I would be regretting right now.

So Timbre at Substation with Audrey, Ferlin, Renee and David was great. The night passed by like nobody's business and before I know it, it was already 12plus midnight. I even thought that we left pretty early until Audrey told me its already past 12. -.-

It was a great feeling to just sit down, chill and listen to great singer singing emo songs at Timbre. It is really a great chillout place, with great food and drinks too. Most importantly, its the company that made the night so enjoyable and memorable. (:

What's surprising to me was that, I saw quite a number of NUS FASS students at Timbre that day too. Lol. Nevermind if they are from NUS, but it was such a coincidence that they are from FASS as well. Lols. I guess many of the FASS students end their paper on Monday.

As we left Timbre, we saw a group of teenagers wearing formal wear walking into Timbre. That scene reminded me of TJC's prom night last year. Everything seemed to have happened so fast. It was only last year that I had my prom at Marina Mandarin and post prom at Zouk. Yet, it felt like ages when that happened. I really really wish time would slow down a little.

Now everyone is scattered all over the world, walking their own path of journey in life. Many left my life and went on to pursue their studies overseas. What I am really looking forward right now is the return of these people to walk back into my life for at least 1 month. I miss them, I really do. Hope that everyone is doing fine and let us all update each other bout our lives when you guys come back Singapore k!

Loving the company. (:

It's the start of something new. (:

And yesterday, 1 Dec, marked the end of my Semester 1 in NUS.

Really, time flies when you least expected it to be so. I think I have been harping on the phase "time flies" so often that even I am sick of it. Lol.

I started my semester well. With the exposure from Arts Camp and Arts Rag, I made friends. Loads of friends. Now that's the thing about uni life, you make many friends. But who exactly would be the true friends who would slow down their pace and walk through this journey with you when they find that you were struggling with this new path of road.

The question is unanswerable.

But time tells it all. And true enough, I got my answers after some time. It was disappointing but luckily, as some people left my life, new ones came and left their footprints in my heart. (:

I don't deny that I felt extremely down and lost for a period of time, when everything seemed to be going wrong. Friends were nonchalant about my existence and hall life did not live up to the stereotype standards I had always wanted it to be.

Then as if life knew that it had to take a turn for the better, I grew closer to my dearest neighbour, Tan Xin. (:

We started hanging out together, talking, chatting and making the efforts to do things together. I could not remember how exactly it happened, I guess, it just happened. I am grateful for having her as my friend in Block D level 3. If not, I guess I would still be wallowing in self pity for having no friends and no one to hang out with.

Not forgetting, my dearest Ping Siew, who would constantly feel left out just because she stays one level below us. Don't worry babe. I didn't forget bout you. (: Without you, I would not even have started living in d-block happily. I will always remember you because you are the FIRST friend I made in d-block, besides Byron. ((: Thanks for the packed lunches and goodies from your fridge! Hopefully more to come k!

Speaking of Byron, he is really a friend I know coincidentally. And honestly, I really did not regret planning to go TH Bash alone that fateful day. If it weren't for my decision to go despite Wen Hui's pangseh (LOL), I wouldn't have known Cherlyn, Hui Ying and Byron. Thanks Byron, for the free drinks you always offer and the company for suppers. (: I always know who to look for when I am hungry. Lol!

Then, I got back in touch with Ying Xiu (JC Best Friend), Hui Ping and the B1 guys. It was really fortunate to have known them. Because of them, I seriously felt TH more like a home. The only obstacle obstructing us from being closer as friends is probably the distance. Though we are all so near, but still it felt so far. Nevertheless, my life in TH starts to get enjoyable knowing that their presence in hall simply motivates me to stay on. (:

It always seems like when the good things start rolling, everything starts to get on the right track again. Fellow d-blockers seemed to have reappeared again after some time of disappearance and now, we are hanging out more often than before. We even have a 2-days continuous after exams programme lined up!

Not forgetting the comms that I joined in TH, especially TH dance. The few weeks of practices with fellow junior dancers never failed to brighten up my nights. Despite feeling tired and all, friends there would be there to cheer one another on. When it came to the night of our performance, we did our thing. And yes, we bonded and we felt it in our hearts. (: Hopefully more, hopefully more.

The end of semester 1 also marks the end of the 5 modules I took for the past 3 months. Needless to say, I would definitely miss Junyi. Never did I expect myself to find a friend in that module, but yet, I found one and actually clicked with her. I will definitely miss going lectures with you babe. And of course the rare few lunches we had together (at least we did). Food Security and Safety lectures would not be the same, without you. Really.

And then it was the nerve-wrecking module, Film and History. Grateful is definitely the word I would use to describe the friends I made from this module. Thanks to Miq, I found myself in a group that I am comfortable with and hence, able to post comments on the forum and learn from them. Movie-watching with them was enjoyable and memorable. It was a great module to kick start my semester 1 even though it might endanger my CAP score. But seriously, when I think about all my modules and the learning process, I really felt that I have gained plenty.

To the hell with the CAP score. I shall worry about it when the results are released.

I think I am really a true blue emo kid. The exams have just ended and I started to emo already. ARGH! I shall just have fun now and stop thinking bout emo stuff!

The programmes planned are like never-ending. I can't wait for it to start though it already did. Timbre with the humdinger girls was wonderful. Photos and updates tml. (:

Tata!

Monday, October 20, 2008

Loving what I am doing. (:

Once again, it is a new week. And this time, we are into the 10th week of school. Give us another month and we are into the examination week where Semester 1 would be ending. Tell me, is it just me or time in uni really flew by fast?

School was good today because Joel dropped by to pay me a visit. (:

Honestly, the 2 hours of lunch time was much more well spent today as compared to the past 9 weeks. Somehow, the start of this weekly Monday routine initially was fresh and exciting because us raggers were bonded by the weekly lunch meet up. Then as weeks passed by unknowingly, we began meeting up at that common place because, i feel, we are obliged to do so.

Nevertheless, there ain't much more weeks left for us to meet up every Mondays so I will still treasure the times we will have. Hopefully, something will develop out of it. I don't expect anything great to happen but at least, I hope to keep the hope with me that we will talk like friends when having lunch together and not just have lunch for the sake of having it together.

Anyways, had BK lunch with Joel in my room. My time spent with him was really enjoyable because we talked and simply enjoy each others presence. It didn't felt like an obligation or so. It was pure enjoyment. (:

And he bought me perfume from Brunei! ((: A nice bottle of HUGO BOSS perfume is sitting comfortably on my shelves now.

After Joel left, I went for my film and history lesson. The film was pretty enjoyable and thank goodness I managed to catch what the casts were talking about. I have a feeling that I am getting better at listening to what casts have to say instead of always looking at the subtitles. Lols.

They returned our 4th essay and I am thankful that I did not fall below average as I had expected to do so. Phew. I must strive to improve though. The next essay would be 25% worth. Let's hope that I can get a reasonably good mark for that. (:

Film and history would be my most worried module because it did not have any end of year examination. Therefore, the marks are pretty much graded on the essays and discussions we made throughout the entire Semester 1. At first I kinda regretted taking this module because many seniors are taking it and competition is damn tough. However, I love this module the most because it really taught me a lot of things. The constant writing of essays, I believe and hope, has improved my writing and analysing skills in one way or another.

Honestly, being in the Faculty of Arts and Social Sciences, I have been learning so much. I love what I am doing and studying now. This is probably why I am not complaining about the projects and assignments and tutorials I get, because I want to learn from it and I am willing to do it. (:

Alright. Time to work on my New Media tutorial and later, block committee meeting.

Till then!

Saturday, October 18, 2008

I hate this feeling of emptiness.

Today was good.

Not plainly because I got the job for Work and Travel USA (which means I am traveling to USA to work for 3 months next year), but because in a very long time ever, I finally felt happy.

It is amazing how I come to a conclusion by myself when all these while, I thought I was undecided and confused. But then, talking to Jeremy, my thoughts just flowed and I found myself telling him the decision regarding whether to stay in hall or not.

Honestly, this would be the most hated scenario I ever wanted. But sad to say, I never expected myself to feel this way. Everything just seemed wrong. Maybe I did not try hard to socialize enough, or maybe my good intentions were just not reciprocated enough for me to feel happy.

Today was good, because I finally met the people who I will never fail to be happy with.

Through the times of work, we bonded. And now, we have entered different phases in our lives. We are pretty much leading different lives from each other, but yet, we could still enjoy each others company in total comfort.

Many times I pondered and wondered, why is it so hard to even find someone I am comfortable with and someone who will reciprocate this friendship equally in uni. Even in hall, I am starting to feel out of place. I feel ridiculous to even feel the need to participate in so many activities right now.

Isn't friendship all about being happy?

Why is it that I can't find this similar of happiness among my uni friends?
Instead, I yearn to be alone whenever I am with them.
Sighs.

This is yet another happy but emo day.

I really missed you.
Because of your absence I felt alone, and the radio deejays are the only people whom I felt were accompanying through these 8 days.

How pathetic is that. ):

Saturday, October 11, 2008

Things will be fine. (:

When the clock strikes 2am, the plane to Brunei would be taking off.

Although Eagle's Eye did not work out, dinner at Hans was great. (:
Sometimes, fanciful and exciting programmes are not necessary to make me enjoy the day.
Just your company and being who you are is enough to make me smile.

Take care of yourself in Brunei and I will wait for you to return. (:

10 days, it wont be long.

I hope.

Thursday, October 09, 2008

I played touch rugby today. (:

Yes, it is as simple as that.

I have never thought that playing a sport would make me feel so happy. It felt good to be sweating it all out especially when the week had been a stressful and tiring one. Ever since university life started and I started living at hall, I realised that I had not been moving around much. Today's second touch rugby practice with the Temasek Hall mates was very enjoyable. (:

On a side note, I am very grateful that I am allocated a place for an interview with one of the employers from the Work And Travel USA 2009. And the employer I was allocated to for interview is quite a reputable one, I am really looking forward to it and hopefully, I get the job.

Initially I was allocated my second choice which was to work at some swimming pool as a lifeguard. I totally freaked out, cause I do not know how to swim at all. So how am I supposed to work as a lifeguard? Thank goodness, I was given a second chance. Really, I really trust that things happen for a reason. And I trust that good things will be awaiting ahead even though the job I may get is not near New York and the popular states in US. But still, I would be thankful enough to be able to get a place and work in US. That is all I ask for now. ((:

In a blink of an eye, tomorrow is a Friday again. But tomorrow won't be a happy day, because Joel would be leaving for Brunei and I will only get to see him 3 weeks later. Sighs. )):